Year in Review: The Journey of an Erotic Artist

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As most of my clients know I like to take some time off each year to travel. And when I say travel it is usually not to some luxury vacation spot where I am sipping Mai Tai’s and lounging by the pool. It is a time for me to remove myself from my usual environment—to remind myself of the diversities that surround us—and to do healing work, self reflection, cleansing and rejuvenating. This time away keeps work feeling fresh and exciting. Not that my job is EVER boring but it sparks new passion in me that I can then pass on to my clients.


However, as my regulars know, my yearly short sabbatical basically turned into an unexpected year long sabbatical. So where have I been and what the fuck have I been doing!?


Well, just as I was amping up to bring in the new year with my amazing Denver clientele I received an interesting offer. I was proposed with an exclusive contract to serve as a full-time companion for a wealthy businessman. What an adventure this was! It was amazing in many ways and through the experience was able to understand many things—mainly the importance of my freedom and the need to be my authenticity self. In the end the allure of the gilded cage turned out not to be for me.


After the consummation of that contract I decided it was time for a change of scenery. I have worked in Seattle in the past and have always been in love with the beautiful city. I found a new space in Seattle and was planning my move out there when I got another unexpected proposal.


A shaman that I had done medicine work with in the past ended up parting ways from the center he started with and after having procured an amazing space in Central America, had the time and space to work more exclusively with those wanting to dive deeply into the outer and inner universe. When he initially reached out I was a bit torn. Well fuck, should I focus on work or myself?


But how often does the opportunity to work exclusively, one-on-one with the Shaman of your choice come up? So I unpacked for the city and repacked for the jungle and off I was to a journey that would serve to be the most deeply intense experience of my life...so far.


There is much debate in recent discussion around the morality and ethical responsibility when it comes to the shaman/student, healer/wounded, man/woman dynamic. When you have a mix of money, medicine, sexuality, and power the lines of truth, love, manipulation, light and darkness all begin to blur. Through the intensity of my journey I was able to understand many things when it comes to the the boundaries and structure necessary to uphold when working with clients and because of this I hope to hold a safer, more transparent container for all those that I work with.


Rich in existentialism, sexuality, comedy and drama, I am excited to be sharing my epic journey in its entirety in my first novel that is currently in the works! (But I would love support and advice on this project. If anyone has any useful tips, contacts for editors or publishers, or general advice please let me know!)


Although I am incredibly grateful for the opportunity, I will humbly admit that re-entering into the western world was very difficult for me. Culture shock can only begin to describe the emotions I felt within. However after several weeks of grounding back into my western home and as the shock began to wear off, I again was given guidance and remembrance of why I am here.


I deeply love my Denver based clientele, however my new energy required a new location. Having come full circle, I have finally made to Seattle!


So I am officially back, with more passion and purpose then ever and so excited to be in the amazing city of Seattle! What is my purpose now?


My life umbrella purpose has always been sharing the gift of pleasure and sacred sexually but stemming off of that, my main goals now are to either heal the heart or strengthen the mind.


With these goals in mind, my session offerings will focus on what I am calling Hypnossage or Fantasy Escapes. In these sessions we can work on healing work and reprogramming or we can work on strengthening the mind to take you wherever you choose to go. Learn more about these session in blog post Erotic Hypnossage: The Ultimate Reprogramming & Fantasy Escapes: Fantasy within the Mind


In conclusion, 2018 was quite the year for me and has changed me in so many amazing ways.

With this new change I hope to provide you with an even more amazing session with the energy of compassion, sensuality, gratitude and humbleness.


I look forward to building a new sense of community in Seattle and to stay connected to my amazing Denver based clientele, who is welcome to come visit me anytime! Thank you for your continued devotion and support! For a more expounded thank you check out my blog: A Big Thank You to my Clientele

Fantasy Escape Sessions: Erotic Journey within the Mind

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Do you ever look around and think to yourself, there must be more to this life than just this. You feel it at your core, don’t you? Behind the masks that we all wear everyday, we know this to be true. We know that we have become numbed to comply. We know that we are meant to feel more.

Maybe you have felt it before—watching a movie or being in an intoxicating state. That feeling of ecstasy where the ‘real’ world ceases to exist and what is left is that one moment—a moment of present where time is relative—a moment of pleasure and beauty. But only for a moment and then it comes to a screeching halt as your mind plays out reminders of consequences from past and worries of the future.

But how do we cultivate more of those moments into our lives? How can we live a life filled with more true moments and feel what we are truly meant to feel?

The mind is an incredibly powerful tool. Note, the term ‘tool.’ It is a tool, however in modern times the mind has taken over almost completely. It is no longer a tool, it has become us. We believe the mind so completely that whatever it tells us we are, we become.

One must learn how to control it. One must learn how to detach from it. One must learn how to harness its powers to work for us and not against us.

Let’s face it, the world today is in a dire state of sadnesses and suffering. There is almost nowhere in the world that is free from hatred, fear, corruption and suffering. So where can one escape!? The truest escape we have is into the mind...if harnessed correctly.

But the mind can serve either as a prison, caging you in polluted self deprecating thoughts or it can free you from all sadness and misery— if you learn the power of imaginative creation.

This is what a Fantasy Escape session aims to provide.

A basic layout and relaxation needed for your mind to let go. Then you are free to create whatever fantasy your little heart desires.

You don’t need a movie, you don’t need porn. All you need is a well tuned mind, capable of making a world where you are king and anything you want is yours, just the way you would like it.

The problem is, is that most people don’t even know what they want. You are constantly being told what you want so when are you free to decide for yourself? It must become a practice. You must remove the stimuli of the outside world, dive into the deepest parts of your psyche and see what lies beneath the layers of societal programming. What do you truly desire? What does your world of creation look like? What is your happy place? If you could create the perfect fantasy, what would it be?

It takes practice clearing the mind to be able to construct a world of pleasure and bliss. Meditation is a great tool for this. I tell people to use this as a goal for meditation. Many times people don’t even know why they are meditating. Maybe they are just trying to reduce anxiety or have a moment of stillness. But they don’t realize the amazing things that you can do with the mind once the benefits of meditation pay off.

So think of it like this—the mind is full of cluttered thoughts, cycling around in your brain at rapid rates. How are you to create in a world full of such clutter? Mediation is used to remove the clutter. The goal is to create a mind of blank stillness. Imagine now a white platform, like in the matrix. Once you can master this, your imagination can be ignited and ready to create.

Nikola Tesla was a master at mind creation. It is said that as a child his mother would have him practice imagining 3D objects from all angles until they appeared as true as a solid object. As an inventor he would first create the invention in his mind. He would run it from start to finish, seeing where it would fail and correcting it in his mind. It was first perfected in his mind before he would go to work on the real world project.

Being use to constant stimuli, at first this might be difficult for you as you jump over the hurdles that your mind will throw at you. In a session you may think of what you were doing earlier; what you have to do later. You may think about me and what I am thinking. You may be feeling guilt and that you do not deserve to receive so much attention, as most people are taught that being a receiver is selfish. You may feel shame around the fantasies that are coming into your mind. You may have a hard time letting go of tension that you have been holding so tightly in your physical form.

The sensory deprivation aspect of my sessions helps greatly to remove these obstacles. In stillness people feel the need to fill uncomfortable silences with talking. With open eyes people begin to analyze and judge. Hearing the noises of the world around them people find it hard to relax and let go. The use of headphones and blindfolds takes care of all of these issues.

All of these obstacles are perfectly normal and take practice to let go of. But with practice of meditation and after a few sessions you will learn that it is safe to let go and your mind will open up to the beauty that is your happy place.

So what is your happy place? What can we create together? Maybe you are a Persian god being pampered by his Arabian consort. Maybe you are a Celtic King being given god like abilities by his seductive all-powerful oracle.

And with this practice you will be amazed at how a simple practice of fun and fantasy can reform your entire life. When you understand the power of the mind you will believe that your thoughts truly do create your reality. In your world, where you have crowned yourself king of the world of ultimate pleasure, guess what happens in waking life. It translates and this is what you will begin to attract. Imagine over and over again that you are powerful, seductive and strong and eventually you exude that and it will shift your reality.

I use music as the basic platform of creation for your mind to play. Each session option has been carefully engineered with a specially designed playlist to help transport you into the world of imagination. With years of practice with bodywork and energy it is then my job to guide you into a deep state of relaxation and pleasure.


So now the only question is, are you ready? Are you ready to take control of the mind? Are you ready to explore your inner fantasies and desires? Are you ready to escape the world of masks and fakery? Are you ready to truly feel your body? Or not...maybe you just want to relax and have a really good fucking time! Whether you have deep intentions for growth or you just need an amazing hour of pampering and bliss...I am here to engineer the perfect session for you!

Erotic Hypnossage Sessions: The Ultimate Reprogramming

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What is Erotic Hypnossage?

Erotic hypnossage harnesses the power of hypnosis, orgasm, touch and technology to create significant and lasting change in your life.

But there are lots of components to this so let’s start with Hypnosis.

What is hypnosis?

Hypnosis is defined as a human condition involving focused attention, reduced awareness, and an enhanced capacity to respond to suggestion. The premise of hypnosis is that if a suggestion is allowed to go into your subconscious mind, then it has the power to change your beliefs and change your behaviors.

What is the point of Hypnosis? What are we actually trying to do?

There are 6 brainwaves. Brainwaves are produced by synchronized electrical pulses from masses of neurons communicating with each other. Our brainwaves change according to what we’re doing and feeling. When slower brainwaves are dominant we can feel tired, slow, sluggish, or dreamy. The higher frequencies are dominant when we feel wired, or hyper-alert. The 6 waves are:

  • Beta: is the normal waking state, which is measured at a frequency of 14-28 cycles per second.

  • Gamma: occurs when a person is processing stimuli and grouping things into a coherent whole. It is not a state of mind. It occurs during beta and is the fastest of brainwaves at 38-42 cycles per second

  • Alpha: is a relaxed state which is inductive to visualization and creativity. The alpha wave pattern occurs during a brainwave frequency from 9 to 14 cycles per second.

  • Theta: occurs during REM Sleep. The brain shows a theta wave pattern from 4 to 8 cycles per second. Theta brain waves can be considered the subconscious. It is the first stage of the phase where people dream.

  • Delta: is the sleep state. The brain shows a delta wave pattern from 1 to 4 cycles per second.

  • Infra-Low: Very little is known about this state but they appear to take a major role in brain timing and network function. It is measured below .5 hz.

The point of hypnosis is to reach the theta state. That frequency is when we are most open to suggestion and reprogramming.

But there is also another time when we are in this suggestible, programmable state. *This is important to know!

Between the age of 0-7 we are basically in a state walking hypnosis...our entire early childhood. We are completely open to suggestibility, available for super learning—able to learn up to 5 languages at a time, just absorbing everything around us. Like a brand new computer or tabula rasa, we come here with a clean slate—ready to learn, perfectly programmed to emulate and download everything we are taking in, everything that we are being told, everything we are observing. Even while in the womb we are absorbing programming.

This is the time when we take on our beliefs about our environment, about authority figures, about religion and more importantly about ourselves. It is a dream like state. So it is like when you wake and you don’t remember much. Most people do not have vivid memories of this period. So when they think of themselves they believe what those voices in their head are them, but you have to understand that they have been put there, strategically suggested and drilled into your subconscious from birth.

Interesting Quotes:

Dated back to the 1500’s the Jesuit’s motto was:

“Give me a child until he is seven and I will show you the man.”

Because they knew that the best opportunity to indoctrinate a person as a believer and devotee to religious dogma is when they are young and if you do, you will have them for life.

Vladimir Lenin was a Russian revolutionary, politician, and political theorist. He served as head of government of Soviet Russia and said:

"Give me four years to teach the children and the seed I have sown will never be uprooted."


"When one provokes in a child a fear of the dark, one awakens in him a feeling of atavistic dread. Thus this child will be ruled all his life by this dread, whereas another child, who has been intelligently brought up, will be free of it." -Hitler


The good news is that we have the power to change this programming. But not in the way that we have been doing it in the past.

Affirmations/Positive Thinking:

We talk about the power of affirmations and positive thinking and while that seems all well and good, it requires a tremendous amount of will power and constant conscious awareness.

The problem with the repetition of affirmations is that they are only available in conscious awareness, they are not being rooted into your subconscious.

Statistics:

  • The average brain has around 70,000 thoughts during an 18 hour day.

We are conscious of 3000 and 5000 of those thoughts. So that would mean you subconsciously have another 65,000 to 67,000 thoughts which you have no control over. An average of 95%.

95% of your waking life is being run by your subconscious mind. Most of that 95% is the 0-7 programming.

  • We all see the world in a different way. We don't even actually look at the world, what happens is photons hit our eyes and turn into chemicals which are transferred to our brains, and then our brain translates that into what we "see." According to various researchers, the chemical signature of an emotion lasts from 5 to 90 seconds. So any emotion that lasts longer than 90 seconds is an unconscious programmed emotion that we have experienced over and over again and fires chemically on its own.

So you have a choice. Do you want to expend massive amounts of energy trying to increase your conscious awareness to an extra 65,000 thoughts per day? Or do you want the change the running program so that your automation of those 70,000 are thoughts that you choose to program—not your parents, not society, not your peers.

So now back to hypnosis:

So what hypnosis does is it puts you back into that programmable state, like you were as a child and attempts to reprogram the subconscious.

When you are able to communicate with the subconscious you are able to correct limiting and unnecessary beliefs that have shaped the actions of your life. Your beliefs create your own reality. By changing your beliefs you can literally change any part of your life. You can overcoming all of those self-defeating patterns that have been holding you back. You can see the true beauty that lies at the core of who you really are. You can change the way you view all of this because even that is a program.  

SEXUAL ENERGY:

So we have talked about hypnosis, now let’s talk about the power of the sexual energy:

Sexual energy is one of the most powerful catalyst we have. It drives us into a state of nothingness where we can freely reach source and our energy is open and available for reprogramming and creation.  

What is happening on an energetic level?

The energy in the body increases and the flow of circulation through the body is greatly sped up. During this time the body is in a prodigious state of receptivity and all chakras and meridians of the body are receiving a clear channel of energy flow. Your vibration becomes more wave like creating a blending and balancing of the physical and non-physical aspects of you.  

What is happening on a spiritual level?

The awareness of the ego or identity is dissolved so you are open to the oneness of your true nature. All programs that you believed made up your identity are gone. This is why tantra has been used throughout history as a tool to reach higher states of consciousness and enlightenment. It brings you to the true state of love and in this state of love you are able to comprehend the meaning of being one. Physical and non-physical matter align, ego and identity dissolve and separation becomes an illusion. Here you meet your infinite, multidimensional self—here you reach source.

Human life is merely a byproduct of sexuality. It is the power of that energy that has quite literally created life itself.

And so you can see how powerful this force is and the creative, regenerative, transformative powers that comes along with it.

You were conceived by this power. The question is...What are you conceiving with this power now?



TECHNOLOGY AND TOUCH:

Now let’s talk about technology and touch and how everything is brought together to create this supertool healing practice that can quite literally change your entire life.

The way everything comes together is through sensory deprivation.


What is Sensory Deprivation?

Sensory deprivation is defined as the deliberate removal of stimuli from one or more senses so the others become magnified or distorted. When a person loses a sense, the body compensates for this lack of sense which leads to a heightening of the other senses.

The ubiquitous image of traditional hypnosis is sitting in a chair with a therapist verbally guiding you through the process. But with advancements in technology we can now use audio to enhance the effects of hypnosis.

With the use of music and effects tuned to a certain frequency, the electrical brain activity can recognize and match the frequency and can be induced into a Theta brain wave state more easily.

  • Theta patterns: Binaural beats in the theta pattern are set at a frequency of between 4 and 8 Hz, which is associated with sleep in the rapid eye movement or REM phase, meditation, and creativity.


The power of Massage:

Finally massage plays an important role as it is the final catalyst that creates a deeper state of relaxation, creates the circulation and waves of energy that move through the body and induces the final peak of energy release.

With the tools of hypnosis, sexual energy, touch and technology you have the power to create significant and lasting change in your life—beyond what you could have ever imagined. This is your life, write the program how you want it to run.


A Big Thank You to My Loyal Clientele

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I just wanted to take a moment to express my immense gratitude to all of my amazing, loyal clients that have continued to follow me over the years.

If you have been following me for a while you know that I am a capricious being in constant motion and ever changing. I have a considerable animus against settling down. I am not one that finds contentment easily and I am not one that ever feels fully satisfied. All of these traits have their downsides of course. But the upsides to these parts of me means that I am always learning, growing and am pretty fucking interesting!

There is a whole world out there and the curious, experiential drive in me wants to experience it all. I have a deep desire to learn everything I can about the world and myself. When I feel stagnant in a place or with my work, that becomes my cue to get up and move. Sometimes it is an actual move, sometimes it is travel, sometimes it is changing up my practice a bit. Whichever necessary action calls to me at the time, if you have been with me for a while, you have seen me do it all.

You have seen me change my name, my branding, my location, my services, my look, and my office. You have seen me take time off for 1-6 months at a time. These traits, in particular, are notably abhorred in the mainstream corporate world. In these realms I would be labeled as flaky, unreliable, flighty, indecisive, not committed...I could go on and on...but you get the idea. Luckily, I was able to find ‘work’ that truly fills my soul and allows me to have the lifestyle that I am best suited for. As an iconoclast, that is often driven towards the more clandestine lines of work, I refuse to live up to the status quo.

But I know that this can be frustrating for some people. We do not like goodbyes and when we find something that makes us happy it can be hard to let that go. This is one of the biggest lessons that I am trying to master in this life—unattachment and the ability to let go with gratitude. And so what I hope to cultivate with my clients is a non-dependant relationship. This is a hard one for a business basically based on dependency. Many women would want you to become dependent on them, almost in an addictive way, to keep you coming back. Their business depends on this.

But what I would love to create for you is the knowing that what we experience together is the magic that YOU have created. I am simple a conduit for the energy that lives within you. When I am here, I would love to help you ignite that pilot light. But when I am gone, know that the light within you is still lit and that you have the ability to blaze that fire whenever and with whomever you want.

Through this intimate sharing I hope it brings a better understanding of my ephemeral ways—why I am here and then gone and one way and then another way, in an attempt to abolish any unconscious thoughts of my actions construed as abandonment or lack of caring. So please know how much I care about YOU. How much I appreciate YOU. And how grateful I am for your continued desire to work with me.

Many things about myself and my practice will continue to change as I grow and evolve. But the one thing that never changes is my heart. My mind will expand, my comprehension will deepen, my understand of myself will broaden and as that happens my services, looks and locations will change. But at the core, my heart, will always remains the same. The outer package will continue to change, the world around us will continue to revolve, but the deepest essence, the core of my true nature will always remain the same and in fact, will only shine brighter as the film of my programming continues to gets dusted away.

So again, thank you for your understanding, thank you for your support and thank you for your bravery and openness to try the new things that I am constantly presenting to you. Because as I grow, in turn, so do you!


5 Reasons Why You Will Love a Milking Table?

5 Reasons Why You Will Love a Milking Table?

The verdict is in. Across the board everyone loves the Milking Table. But with my ever curious, analytical mind, I wants to know why!

I have been getting a lot of play time in with my custom made milking table and am just loving it. New to the concept of a Milking Table? Let me explain.