I just wanted to take a moment to express my immense gratitude to all of my amazing, loyal clients that have continued to follow me over the years.
If you have been following me for a while you know that I am a capricious being in constant motion and ever changing. I have a considerable animus against settling down. I am not one that finds contentment easily and I am not one that ever feels fully satisfied. All of these traits have their downsides of course. But the upsides to these parts of me means that I am always learning, growing and am pretty fucking interesting!
There is a whole world out there and the curious, experiential drive in me wants to experience it all. I have a deep desire to learn everything I can about the world and myself. When I feel stagnant in a place or with my work, that becomes my cue to get up and move. Sometimes it is an actual move, sometimes it is travel, sometimes it is changing up my practice a bit. Whichever necessary action calls to me at the time, if you have been with me for a while, you have seen me do it all.
You have seen me change my name, my branding, my location, my services, my look, and my office. You have seen me take time off for 1-6 months at a time. These traits, in particular, are notably abhorred in the mainstream corporate world. In these realms I would be labeled as flaky, unreliable, flighty, indecisive, not committed...I could go on and on...but you get the idea. Luckily, I was able to find ‘work’ that truly fills my soul and allows me to have the lifestyle that I am best suited for. As an iconoclast, that is often driven towards the more clandestine lines of work, I refuse to live up to the status quo.
But I know that this can be frustrating for some people. We do not like goodbyes and when we find something that makes us happy it can be hard to let that go. This is one of the biggest lessons that I am trying to master in this life—unattachment and the ability to let go with gratitude. And so what I hope to cultivate with my clients is a non-dependant relationship. This is a hard one for a business basically based on dependency. Many women would want you to become dependent on them, almost in an addictive way, to keep you coming back. Their business depends on this.
But what I would love to create for you is the knowing that what we experience together is the magic that YOU have created. I am simple a conduit for the energy that lives within you. When I am here, I would love to help you ignite that pilot light. But when I am gone, know that the light within you is still lit and that you have the ability to blaze that fire whenever and with whomever you want.
Through this intimate sharing I hope it brings a better understanding of my ephemeral ways—why I am here and then gone and one way and then another way, in an attempt to abolish any unconscious thoughts of my actions construed as abandonment or lack of caring. So please know how much I care about YOU. How much I appreciate YOU. And how grateful I am for your continued desire to work with me.
Many things about myself and my practice will continue to change as I grow and evolve. But the one thing that never changes is my heart. My mind will expand, my comprehension will deepen, my understand of myself will broaden and as that happens my services, looks and locations will change. But at the core, my heart, will always remains the same. The outer package will continue to change, the world around us will continue to revolve, but the deepest essence, the core of my true nature will always remain the same and in fact, will only shine brighter as the film of my programming continues to gets dusted away.
So again, thank you for your understanding, thank you for your support and thank you for your bravery and openness to try the new things that I am constantly presenting to you. Because as I grow, in turn, so do you!